y'know, its inda funny when you dont log in to an account for a REALLY long time, then you log on and everything has been changed around...

last day at work on friday... moving next saturday.... oughta be interesting...

just wanted to leave a small message saying hi, i really dont have much to ramble off about right now. hopefully more later.

I'm back...

well, sorta anyhow...

just wanted to let everyone know i am still alive and well. just been waiting out the cold.

so there is this whole debate about punk being dead with the 80s and emo being the new thing or something. ok. i know that peopls oppinions are important and stuff... but i still have not recieved an explanation for WHAT THE FUCKIS EMO EXACTLY?!?!
c'mon kids... everyone has emotions... we have enough poets in the world to whine about how much they hurt, why does it have to leak in to our music?

this is my argument. punk is not dead. why? because nirvana just outsold elvis in record sales, thats why. because The Velvet Undergound was one of the legends of punk rock. because if anyone acctually understands punk, they know to just get angry and hold their feelings inside instead of whining about how much they hurt all the time. now im not saying that people shouldnt talk about things... oh no... im jsut saying STOP WITH THE FUCKING WHINING!!! BITCHES!!!

lets talk about emo kids for a little while...

all i have to say is the cure did it better. im sorry, but they did. if youre gonna be a goth or something listen to better music. the "nouveau goth" thing just isnt doing it for me.
if youre gonna listen to the music.... fine... some of the bands are decent... but if youre gonna try to be a know it all about it, at least know the background of shit before you open youre fucking mouth.

its not that i get offended by this subject, i just think that some people think they know more than they acctually do and need to keep their mouths shut. so go to your blacklit room and cry. cry untill you have nothing left and cry somemore about how much your life sucks. yknow, because no one else knows what its like to have emotional pain in their lives or anything... ask me about emotional pain and i can have people tell you some stories... assholes...

moral of the story...

stop trying to be cool by wearing your emotions on your sleeve and start being yourself... THAT is punk rock

take that bitches....

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you guys missed an awesome party on saturday..........

heres the roster of who won what:

Best Overall: Chirstina as a  geisha
Best Use of Absolutly Nothing: Jenn as a Mastercard Ad
Most Random: Eric as... um... cabbage
Scariest: Alex as something that really wasn't defined but he acted the part well

we had our share of drama, but no party is complete without it, right? luckilly it stopped raining so the night wasnt that bad... especially sitting around the fire pit at 5:00 in the morning drinking as much rum as we possible could....

otherwise nothing new....

hope everyone had a safe and happy halloween... dont eat too much candy kids... it'll go straight to your thighs!

had a good weekend... 

king richards faire on saturday which was sooooo much fun! i went with a friend and we got all dressed up and stuff... he also witnessed firsthand why i am not an actor, which he will not let me forget, but what else do you expect from heatre people? it was great and i was offered to put my resume in for next season which i am highly concidering since the last time i was offered i lost contact with my friend (who acctually did the casting... dumbass!!!)

salem on sunday with the girls... walked around and had a grand olde time... not much to say there exept the town has changed a little since i lived there... went to the bar after for kareoke... i hate kareoke...

so....... i have yet to hear from anyone about satuday... YOURE SLACKIN' GUYS!!!! I KNOW Y'ALL WANNA COME...

otherwise things have been well. recovering from my week last week, which i am glad i have so many great friends to show me an awesome weekend and get my head off of things. its been rough but unfortunatly life happens. the pretrial is the 13TH of november which, ironically, is the day after the primus concert we were supposed to go to with paul and jenny. i dont think jenny is gonna go... i dont blame her at all really...

anywho... ive got stuff to do before work... 

havagooday!!!!!!

wake is tomorrow in bourne. my friends want to stop at the crash site on the way home since we pass it anyhow. im honestly not sure how i feel about that...

theres a memorial on the beach friday day which will be nice.

its been harder than expected... but im keeping my head up and remembering with everyone who knew him.

its really been rough....

http://www.myfoxboston.com/myfox/pages/News/Detail?contentId=1182493&version=1&locale=EN-US&layoutCode=VSTY&pageId=3.1.1



its been a hard weekend. if you dont have a flash player you can view the printer friendly option. my friend paul was in the saturn...

nothing new... same old crap just a different day.

on a lighter note i feel better... thank gods!

people i work with have been goofing off all night... i think its semi amusing anyhow... i spose everyone needs a goof off day every once in a while

im reading the new ellis novel... its really good, but then again...

friday the 13TH.... my friend is having a party tonight... not really sure if im up for it, but i told her id stop by for a little while anyway.

i feel lost...
sorta...
at least now i have a kinda plan...

RANDOM POEM THAT KINDA FITS MY DAY

woke up with an ache in my heart
it hasnt gone away all day
half moon shines upon the world
answers can be found in her eyes
if it were only worth looking
youd be able to find your answer
and maybe neither of us would hurt
if only 8 years ago
that day is biting me in the back
and yes
i will regret that day
for a very long time
and perhaps someday
that chance will not pass in the night
but for now all i have are my thoughts
and my memories
of what we could have been
instead of what we are
supposed friends
with a little more attached
or how did you put it?
a girlfriend who happens to be a friend
or maybe that was reversed
its hard to keep my mind on things
when your eyes distract me from whatever i am doing
but i guess its back to work with me
and wait for my turn.